This Word came to me recently, and it was in the midst of one of those particularly daunting days. One of those days where the warfare is extra heated, the cross you bear feels extra heavy, and your spiritual gas tank is on E. I knew I needed to have a moment with God, one that didn’t involve me talking so much as me letting out the things I had bottled up, as part of my effort to break that particular habit. I knew I needed to let go, and let some tears flow, but I also needed to set the atmosphere. So after coming home from work, I began to praise, because I know that our praise to God isn’t about us, it shouldn’t be affected by our feelings unless they’re fueling it; our praise is homage to God for His goodness, His faithfulness and mercy. So regardless of what I felt, I praised, and lo and behold it opened the door to intimacy with God, an intimacy to where I was able to shed those tears that needed to be shed, and I felt the Lord impress this onto me, and for those who are used to trying to “keep on trucking”, those who are strong not out of desire but out of necessity, I believe this applies to you, and to anyone who is on the struggle-bus:
The Holy Spirit said:
It hurts acknowledging you’re hurt. But God wants you to look at the wound
Stop gritting your teeth and trying to be perfect
Stop trying to act like you’re not in pain
Acknowledge the hurt
Acknowledge the pain and let Him heal you
Acknowledge the shackles and chains
Acknowledge the weight you’ve been carrying but have blinded yourself to, because you’ve put unrealistic expectations on yourself.
You project these expectations onto others and think that’s what they want from you; you think that’s what God wants from you
“Take it on the chin and keep walking”
“Leave the arrow in your chest and keep going. Leave that blood pooling around that wound alone, it’ll close on its own.”
“Don’t let the pain stop you, keep it moving!”
No
God says to acknowledge it
Acknowledge the trauma
It’s not a crutch
It’s not an excuse
Acknowledge it so He can heal you
How can you give it to Him if you’re pretending it’s not there?
As if you’re not self-medicating with vanity and sin. Be honest with
Stop running from it; stop running from Him
Let Him see it
Let Him touch it
Let Him heal it
Reach out to Him
Show Him your withered hand
Show Him your leprosy
Stop holding back those tears, anoint His feet with them and let Him absolve you of your sins
Let Him take the taste of the world out of your mouth and let Him satiate your needs with Himself
Let Him heal you of those things or that thing that’s holding you back and keeping you in sin cycles
Let Him see it
Let Him heal it
Let Him in
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